I thought I would do a random post because i'm in a random mood :)
Q. Are you a heavy sleeper?
I have been told that I can sleep through anything, but if someone starts talking in the same room I actually wake up, I don't think I sleep as much as I used to mainly because of my truly weird and freaky dreams which I then go and analyse them afterwards and they all mean something but at the end of the day I don't look to much into them at times because they are usually the same ones...
Q. What's your earliest childhood memory?
I was at pre-school and I remember wearing a blue dress and hiding in one of those soft area tunnels and scaring the shit out of my little friend David haha :) I was quite cruel.
Q. What's a life lesson you learned the hard way?
I think I haven't experienced life enough right now to say what is a hard life but I really don't have a hard life it's not what I want what's happening to me right now but it's nothing I can't get over I'm a very optimistic person :)
Q. What's one thing in past like to change?
I wouldn't like to change anything there in the past for a reason they are experiences I had to have to possibly make me grow up. But I do know a few things I'd like to change I would like to be more prepared but who doesn't I wish I went to see my grandad before he died and I will never get that chance again but I would have liked him to know that I couldn't really cope with that at 10 years old even though I was asked quite a few times I'm sorry I said no.
Q. What's your favorite thing about yourself?
I always like to look at both sides of things and I think I'm quite a fair minded person unless someone wants to tell me otherwise... But I really am quite a positive person I think that rubs off on other people.
Q. Do you think you're a good judge of character?
I think I am, I size people up alot and sometimes I'm quick to make judgement but after a couple of times of meeting someone I can tell if I will trust them or not.
Q. What did people tease you about growing up?
My stupidity. I didn't have alot of common sense and I do come out with the most randomest shit ever.
Q. Who in your family are you most like?
My dad. But I have the temper of my mum and that you don't want to meet but I'm usually easy going like my dad.
Q. What's the most fun you've had in the last year?
Ah last year was possibly my rock bottom year I had good fun in Newquay and I had some good times with Adam.
Q. Do you have a recurring dream? What happens in it?
I do have recurring dreams two one has just been happening recently and they are both nightmares one involving the candy man where i'm hiding with my mums good friends daughter and the other is being lost in the woods by myself which isn't a problem to me in real life but in my dream it's terrifying!
Q. What's the bravest thing you've ever done?
I don't think I have done anything very brave recently to say.
Q. What's the biggest personal change you've ever made?
I haven't made any changes to myself. I probably have become maturer maybe..
But I wouldn't change for anyone nor would I want anyone to change for me.
Q. Where did you grow up?
I grew up in Aberdeenshire and I really did have a good childhood :)
Q. Where did you go to school?
I went to Primary school in Westhill just out side of Aberdeen then attended Westhill academy for three months then they moved me down south to Oxfordshire where I went to Burford Highschool for about a year and a half.. then I went to Longridge Highschool and then on to Newman college and next step for education is that I'm going to uni.
Q. Did you have a special place where you went to be alone as a child?
Hahah around our house was like a built up area of bushes but bluebells would grow around the outside and we had a big tree at the bottom of the garden that made like and archway and that was my house when ever we were playing outside!
hahahaha
Q. How did you rebel as a child?
Well drinking was probably one of them and constant aggrovation towards my mum especially I think in year eight there was one night where I didn't shout or cry or just scream at everyone around me but then I calmed down :)
Q. What's the best compliment you've ever received?
I don't know the nicest thing I like to hear is that I'm genuine because I am.
Q. What's the worst advice you've ever taken?
Just tell him what's the worse that could happen. I didn't tell him and regretted that.
Q. What talent do you wish you'd been born with?
Dancing feet!
Q. What's the most spontaneous thing you've ever done?
I think going to Scotland just by myself for a week was random but really good :)
Q. What's a subject you wish you knew more about?
I wish I knew more about biology it was my favourite science but i just never paid attention because Mr Murchie was so boring.
Q. What word describes you best?
Bubbly.
Q. What is your greatest accomplishment?
So far? It would have to be getting out of that big dark hole.
Q. What drives you every day?
That I have some pretty good friends :)
Q. What is your favorite food?
I can'te to possibly say it would have to be Chinese!
Q. Where do you want to retire?
I want to be in the open lands of America in tornado season or just somewhere pretty by the sea :)
Q. What is your goal this year?
To pass my driving test again. And start saving some money.
Q. Where do you like to vacation?
Australia at the moment it's so laid back there I would fit in nicely. :)
Q. Who do you admire?
I admire my mum and dad they complain we shout, but they did alot for us and we wouldn't be this good off of it wasn't for them working so hard.
Q. What is your mission in life?
I hate to say it but i'm a family girl I do want to get married and have a couple of kids and a nice little house but we will see eh? Nothing turns out like I plan...
Q. If you were invisible, where would you go?
I would go to NORTH KOREA. They are so naive to everything those people and plus it's really hard to get into the country!
Q. What were your first words and who told you what they were?
my first word was da "dad" lol well dad said it was my first word but mother tells me it was dum for my dummy....
Q. Do you have any weird habits?
Not really... well if i'm at home i always watch a film when i go to sleep.
Q. Was there anything unusual about your birth?
Nothing at all I was healthy one :)
Q. Who did you think was the smartest person in the world?
I think it would be impossible to have all the knowledge in the world there's just too much.
Q. What was your most memorable toy?
Ruby my black white cow.
Q. If you had to choose, which could you live without: TV, the internet, a telephone or friends?
The internet.
Q. If you could be any animal, what would you be and why?
I'd be a main predator they must live the longest. Like tiger or something OR A DRAGON.
Q. Can you tell if someone is lying to you?
No, not really I'm too nice to think somebody would sometimes.
Q. Do you like all your friend?
I like all my friends :)
Q. Do you prefer to live in the big city or a small town and why?
I would like a big city!
Q. What's something you couldn't live without and why?
Air? because we need it to live.
Q. What did you hide from your parents?
smoking. but they know now.
Q. Are you the same person you were as a child, or much different?
Much different. I grew up a little :P
Q. Talk about a time when you got into trouble at school?
urm, I will always remember bunking that day off in highschool and having to be on report for a week that was the worse thing I did at school I wasn't that bad after year eight!
Q. Do you consider your childhood a happy one?
Yes it was very good :)
Q. What is your saddest memory?
My Grandads funeral someone telling me i'm depressed was er, a not so good day.
Q. Who had the most positive influence on you?
My friends
Q. Why were you given your name and does it have a special meaning?
No they just liked Laura.
Q. Did you ever get lost?
I did once at a carboot sale and i cried like a mother fucker then some nice ladies helped me find my mum who was also crying like mad
Thursday 22 July 2010
Sunday 18 July 2010
In all my selfish thoughts.
I could really use a wish right now.
Now I know people have problems but I find it quite good writing on here.
I find it good when I'm so clear.
I will never tread on anyone's toes I hate making awkward situations but I find them interesting all the same watching how everyone reacts to them.
I hate thinking about what I'm going to do about things I'd rather just be a plain sailing than really have anything to worry about it but that's just not human nature.
I think I'm different to quite alot of people.
I'm quite positive about most things but recently I have been finding my negative side and I'm cynical side maybe it's because I have opened my eyes that bit wider to see the real picture.
I hate feeling stupid but I do alot of the time, I feel stupid for thinking about things in that negative light but really I'm thinking no-one can hurt you only if you let them and I'm a sucker for that.
People do find it easy to walk all over me because I usually see the best in people and even after they have done that I still do.
Maybe I should be a life coach.
Nah, mines not too good at the minute, don't get me wrong I love the air I breathe and I love the people I have around me they are truly amazing!
And often I do go off the radar for awhile but it's only because I don't want them to have to listen to all my crap so I usually write it on here which no-one really reads anyway...
I don't get why I'm really writing it sort of gets something out of me by doing this.
I never really find it hard to tell people how I really feel about things if they asked me outright and I will tell them honestly. But I will never tell them the bad things.
I think that's why when bad things come my way I do get down about it but I'm sort of one of these people where I make the decision that's right for me and if that means losing people I'm sorry.
The decision I want to make is that if people don't like the way I say things or think things or deal with things or talk about things then they can fuck off.
I will never change for anyone, I won't pretend to be someone else and at the end of the day I'm always worrying and I'm always thinking about things I maybe shouldn't be thinking about but I thought that everyone does that but I seem to constantly ask why?
Why have they done that?
Why did I do that?
What am I going to do?
And what am I going to do to forget about this one?
And then I'm like BUT REALLY these are problems you can fix.
Number one you need to leave Entwistle Green it's getting me down every time I go to work I constantly worry even more and that they are going to sack me for not being able to get to work and not being able to drive any more but hopefully that won't be long :)
I just need to get myself sorted things just seem to be going good till I just get sort of pushed off track something sidetracks me, it was a good thing I think and I don't regret anything.
But I'm not going to lie. I'm confused, I'm a little mad and I'm a little hurt but it's nothing I can't deal with, but I can see what's really going on and I can see the ulterior motives and I'm going to let you just find out for yourself.
I then want to sort out university because this is something I should really be doing, now some of you think of Laura like aw she's a little ditsy which I can be at times but by god I can get a degree if everyone else can and yes I can be a teacher because I think I have good theory's although maybe telling kids about aliens isn't such a good one. aliens are real shut up.
I just have lots of things going on in this head and it's like overload and it affects everything I do and how I feel and I just don't feel like me at the minute because there's not big problems just little things I need to sort out so until I do I suggest anyone who wants to fuck with this mind stay away or you will just get mind fucked twice over ;)
I can play it however way I want I FOR ONCE I'M GOING TO BE SELFISH.
At the moment I'm going to deal with stuff my way and that's break it down important stuff first and then everyone else later. I'm sorry but I'm not going down the road of constantly feeling sorry for myself and getting told by someone else, what's actually wrong with me.
And they say that some people are deep and that they think about everything going on around them well meet me cos I would really like someone to crack this mid open and have a peek you's be so surprised at what you find.
anyway enough of me telling myself what I'm going to do.
Now I know people have problems but I find it quite good writing on here.
I find it good when I'm so clear.
I will never tread on anyone's toes I hate making awkward situations but I find them interesting all the same watching how everyone reacts to them.
I hate thinking about what I'm going to do about things I'd rather just be a plain sailing than really have anything to worry about it but that's just not human nature.
I think I'm different to quite alot of people.
I'm quite positive about most things but recently I have been finding my negative side and I'm cynical side maybe it's because I have opened my eyes that bit wider to see the real picture.
I hate feeling stupid but I do alot of the time, I feel stupid for thinking about things in that negative light but really I'm thinking no-one can hurt you only if you let them and I'm a sucker for that.
People do find it easy to walk all over me because I usually see the best in people and even after they have done that I still do.
Maybe I should be a life coach.
Nah, mines not too good at the minute, don't get me wrong I love the air I breathe and I love the people I have around me they are truly amazing!
And often I do go off the radar for awhile but it's only because I don't want them to have to listen to all my crap so I usually write it on here which no-one really reads anyway...
I don't get why I'm really writing it sort of gets something out of me by doing this.
I never really find it hard to tell people how I really feel about things if they asked me outright and I will tell them honestly. But I will never tell them the bad things.
I think that's why when bad things come my way I do get down about it but I'm sort of one of these people where I make the decision that's right for me and if that means losing people I'm sorry.
The decision I want to make is that if people don't like the way I say things or think things or deal with things or talk about things then they can fuck off.
I will never change for anyone, I won't pretend to be someone else and at the end of the day I'm always worrying and I'm always thinking about things I maybe shouldn't be thinking about but I thought that everyone does that but I seem to constantly ask why?
Why have they done that?
Why did I do that?
What am I going to do?
And what am I going to do to forget about this one?
And then I'm like BUT REALLY these are problems you can fix.
Number one you need to leave Entwistle Green it's getting me down every time I go to work I constantly worry even more and that they are going to sack me for not being able to get to work and not being able to drive any more but hopefully that won't be long :)
I just need to get myself sorted things just seem to be going good till I just get sort of pushed off track something sidetracks me, it was a good thing I think and I don't regret anything.
But I'm not going to lie. I'm confused, I'm a little mad and I'm a little hurt but it's nothing I can't deal with, but I can see what's really going on and I can see the ulterior motives and I'm going to let you just find out for yourself.
I then want to sort out university because this is something I should really be doing, now some of you think of Laura like aw she's a little ditsy which I can be at times but by god I can get a degree if everyone else can and yes I can be a teacher because I think I have good theory's although maybe telling kids about aliens isn't such a good one. aliens are real shut up.
I just have lots of things going on in this head and it's like overload and it affects everything I do and how I feel and I just don't feel like me at the minute because there's not big problems just little things I need to sort out so until I do I suggest anyone who wants to fuck with this mind stay away or you will just get mind fucked twice over ;)
I can play it however way I want I FOR ONCE I'M GOING TO BE SELFISH.
At the moment I'm going to deal with stuff my way and that's break it down important stuff first and then everyone else later. I'm sorry but I'm not going down the road of constantly feeling sorry for myself and getting told by someone else, what's actually wrong with me.
And they say that some people are deep and that they think about everything going on around them well meet me cos I would really like someone to crack this mid open and have a peek you's be so surprised at what you find.
anyway enough of me telling myself what I'm going to do.
Tuesday 13 July 2010
Hello, is it me your looking for?
I haven't wrote on here for awhile, it's because I have been uber busy well, not uber but just busy.
Where do I begin really..
This is just like my update to me on here.
Apart from losing my license that was a down nothing much well there has been much i just don't know how to look on my whole situation on things...
It's been a long time when I didn't have any real worries..
I didn't worry about money.
About friends.
worrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry.
is a big thing with me I worry.
I worry alot i worry more than i should think i used to get told all the time that didn't express myself enough and then i did and people still say i just don't bite the bullet.
I felt have done more recently like said things I would have worried about but I'm not going to worry about this!
I need to be more organised with myself especially with money.
I was watching something today and mainly because of last night, i saw lots of people from college and they all asked me what you doing now and i replied i don't really know.
I want to be teacher, I want to go to uni but i can see alot of the bad things about it...
I want to see the world as well I just haven't had enough experiences in life to worry about stupid situations that are going on now.
I'd rather if I had the money pick up my bags and travel meet new people see new places although i would miss what i'm leaving behind mostly meaning family and friends but freakin' amazing would it be just to be one day in Venice and the next in Thailand well not as easy as that but you know what I mean..
I want to get into music more not like listening but playing maybe even singing if I don't stop singing stupidly all the time and maybe get some answers to my own mind ah the answers to my mind. I'm good at forgetting about things I have realised this, I'm good at just moving on.
I'm also good at getting the answers I want.
I'm good to my friends at least i think i am haha.
I have no will power when comes to things like smoking or drinking well a little more with drinking and I have a problem of not shutting up.
But what i'm good at is people.
I think i'm quite good with people i hate treading on peoples toes and i hate upsetting people and i hope other people agree with me on this i think i'm too nice.
Sometimes it is good to be a little mean sometimes to avoid getting walked all over but only be mean for the right reasons.
hm.
I think my dreams are seriously fucked up right now as well it's like my head is overloading with information and i need to release it and i don't really know how =/.
As for my dream, the first seriously weird and depressing dream i had was saturday nights, i was an old woman and i had to give an interview about my life there was a child sat beside me and i'm guessing that's my younger self she spoke for me but the old lady opened her mouth but said no words. It freaked me out i then watched myself die which was quite upsetting because there was no-one around, thing is i know exactly what this means i think, and i do believe that dreams are connected with the mind obviously. But it was one of those dreams where you just felt like you had to wake up to make sure it wasn't real.
Last nights dream was really bad, i wasn't in the dream it was all people i didn't know. I was looking in on a highschool a new girl was starting and she was beaming, smiling introducing herself when two other girls with black lights around them and i watched it for what felt like days as these two girls manipulated this poor naive girl she didn't know what she was doing and they manipulated her so much that she resulted hurting the people around her like murder so watching a 13 year old girl murder her mother isn't the highlight of my dreams that has by far been the most disturbing because it was quite detailed. It just blags my head even more than it already it is.
well well well.
Paramore is Manchester they have added another date. I hope I get a ticket in time or i will have to go to ebay.
Where do I begin really..
This is just like my update to me on here.
Apart from losing my license that was a down nothing much well there has been much i just don't know how to look on my whole situation on things...
It's been a long time when I didn't have any real worries..
I didn't worry about money.
About friends.
worrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry.
is a big thing with me I worry.
I worry alot i worry more than i should think i used to get told all the time that didn't express myself enough and then i did and people still say i just don't bite the bullet.
I felt have done more recently like said things I would have worried about but I'm not going to worry about this!
I need to be more organised with myself especially with money.
I was watching something today and mainly because of last night, i saw lots of people from college and they all asked me what you doing now and i replied i don't really know.
I want to be teacher, I want to go to uni but i can see alot of the bad things about it...
I want to see the world as well I just haven't had enough experiences in life to worry about stupid situations that are going on now.
I'd rather if I had the money pick up my bags and travel meet new people see new places although i would miss what i'm leaving behind mostly meaning family and friends but freakin' amazing would it be just to be one day in Venice and the next in Thailand well not as easy as that but you know what I mean..
I want to get into music more not like listening but playing maybe even singing if I don't stop singing stupidly all the time and maybe get some answers to my own mind ah the answers to my mind. I'm good at forgetting about things I have realised this, I'm good at just moving on.
I'm also good at getting the answers I want.
I'm good to my friends at least i think i am haha.
I have no will power when comes to things like smoking or drinking well a little more with drinking and I have a problem of not shutting up.
But what i'm good at is people.
I think i'm quite good with people i hate treading on peoples toes and i hate upsetting people and i hope other people agree with me on this i think i'm too nice.
Sometimes it is good to be a little mean sometimes to avoid getting walked all over but only be mean for the right reasons.
hm.
I think my dreams are seriously fucked up right now as well it's like my head is overloading with information and i need to release it and i don't really know how =/.
As for my dream, the first seriously weird and depressing dream i had was saturday nights, i was an old woman and i had to give an interview about my life there was a child sat beside me and i'm guessing that's my younger self she spoke for me but the old lady opened her mouth but said no words. It freaked me out i then watched myself die which was quite upsetting because there was no-one around, thing is i know exactly what this means i think, and i do believe that dreams are connected with the mind obviously. But it was one of those dreams where you just felt like you had to wake up to make sure it wasn't real.
Last nights dream was really bad, i wasn't in the dream it was all people i didn't know. I was looking in on a highschool a new girl was starting and she was beaming, smiling introducing herself when two other girls with black lights around them and i watched it for what felt like days as these two girls manipulated this poor naive girl she didn't know what she was doing and they manipulated her so much that she resulted hurting the people around her like murder so watching a 13 year old girl murder her mother isn't the highlight of my dreams that has by far been the most disturbing because it was quite detailed. It just blags my head even more than it already it is.
well well well.
Paramore is Manchester they have added another date. I hope I get a ticket in time or i will have to go to ebay.
Tuesday 8 June 2010
Let's Just Live Through This Life
I found some cd's awhile ago and I forgot how much I loved alexisonfire but, I used to play this song on repeat all the time and I made at friend at college who was obsessed with this song as me, and I just remembered getting the bus and I used to love it because ipod was in my ears and this song was played almost every morning, I was going through a rough time, but I loved the trip there and the trip home totally consumed into what I was listening to. I used to get annoyed when people came on the bus that knew me, haha I would talk to them and when I could find a gap in the conversation I would actually go back to my ipod because I just wanted to listen to my music. Haha I'm quite sad. :)
But it brings back those memories when I was just so simple, went to college had good friends not that I don't now but then I look at what's coming ahead and everything is just so complicated =/.
For example quite a few people know that I'm going to court on the 17th and I'm not proud of that because I will lose something that I love to do, I'm going to lose some independence and I haven't really considered what the hell I'm going to do.
I have found that I can easily push things aside and not think about them which not alot of people can do, but I guess it's easier for me to do than others.
I have never been to court and I almost feel like a kid again a little scared, if I lose my new job that I really love. And I just think what the fuck were you doing?
Why were you that stupid not just ask your mum and dad to help you out. It's because they helped me out that past year so fucking much I didn't have the guts to ask them and I had people around me that I could have asked but I can't do that to people.
I think people think of me as quite easy going a little mental will give everyone a chance, which I do. But really inside of me is this actual person who's abit confused at the moment doesn't really know what to do and knows that there's nothing her power to rewind time. If I had that time I would change a few things, I don't have any regrets I know I have said to people that I have regretted things but life's too short to dwell on mistakes you have made which is how I'm looking at this situation at the end of the day they are going to revoke my licence and the bets thing I can do is just get on with it no matter how hard it is, no matter how down I will feel I need to get it together and grow up a little too. Which is something I thought I had done but I am sensible. I know I don't seem it but I do have a head on my shoulders that I can fucking use! I know I can just sometimes I make the wrong choices but doesn't anyone? I have doubts that I won't tell anyone that I have felt about myself.
I haven't cried since the end of February, I mean about something real, but the other day I just felt like a little girl who was helpless and confused and all it took was for someone to ask what's wrong and it was my dad. I cried to him which doesn't happen in my family because we don't do emotions. And it felt strange because I hadn't felt like that for a good five months and it reminds me why I haven't allowed myself to become that vulnerable any more.
I am also seeing someone at the moment, and he's really lovely he makes me laugh he puts the cheesiest grin on my face like a Cheshire cat! Haha
But I have told him I'm not rushing into anything because I really like him but I haven't got that feeling yet where I'm sure I want him.
You see, when I'm with him I don't want to leave him but when I'm with him I don't miss him as such yet..
And he knows the situation that we are just seeing each other but when we are together we act like a couple we hold hands like a couple we kiss like a couple we take the piss like a couple we do all the couple things and I love it. I think it's because i have missed it but I need to be sure because I'm only nineteen and again I told him this and I don't know what I want I may think I like him but is it really something I want to go through again? I'm not saying it will happen but you can't blame me for worrying although he has made his feelings completely clear, but when I usually know it's going to turn into something I listen to songs and they remind me of him which is happening right now I listen to stuff and it reminds me of him and then I have that little flutter but then I get in this mood where I just can't be arsed with anything or seeing anyone and usually I just want to be around one person which is Gemma most of the time. I then read this and I know I'm confused I just need to open up more. I need to let a guy in and not have a defensive barrier around me saying is this what you want? When I should just go with the flow and if it doesn't work it doesn't work, and I may think this is what I want but then I could want something completely different.
Anyway alexisonfire Rough Hands is still one of my favourite songs and it was the most played on the ipod I believe. I just forgot which is stupid really. Also reminds me of my young warehouse times well boiled frogs does more and this could be anywhere in the world and accidents. haha warehouse is good always good times :)
Then there is the one of the lead singers Dallas Green who has an acoustic band called city and colour which was again one of my favourite bands when I was at college it's a bit emo but I still loved the song.
:)
I'm sure I will figure out what to do I always have got through stuff.
"And now blank stares and empty threats, there all I have"
But it brings back those memories when I was just so simple, went to college had good friends not that I don't now but then I look at what's coming ahead and everything is just so complicated =/.
For example quite a few people know that I'm going to court on the 17th and I'm not proud of that because I will lose something that I love to do, I'm going to lose some independence and I haven't really considered what the hell I'm going to do.
I have found that I can easily push things aside and not think about them which not alot of people can do, but I guess it's easier for me to do than others.
I have never been to court and I almost feel like a kid again a little scared, if I lose my new job that I really love. And I just think what the fuck were you doing?
Why were you that stupid not just ask your mum and dad to help you out. It's because they helped me out that past year so fucking much I didn't have the guts to ask them and I had people around me that I could have asked but I can't do that to people.
I think people think of me as quite easy going a little mental will give everyone a chance, which I do. But really inside of me is this actual person who's abit confused at the moment doesn't really know what to do and knows that there's nothing her power to rewind time. If I had that time I would change a few things, I don't have any regrets I know I have said to people that I have regretted things but life's too short to dwell on mistakes you have made which is how I'm looking at this situation at the end of the day they are going to revoke my licence and the bets thing I can do is just get on with it no matter how hard it is, no matter how down I will feel I need to get it together and grow up a little too. Which is something I thought I had done but I am sensible. I know I don't seem it but I do have a head on my shoulders that I can fucking use! I know I can just sometimes I make the wrong choices but doesn't anyone? I have doubts that I won't tell anyone that I have felt about myself.
I haven't cried since the end of February, I mean about something real, but the other day I just felt like a little girl who was helpless and confused and all it took was for someone to ask what's wrong and it was my dad. I cried to him which doesn't happen in my family because we don't do emotions. And it felt strange because I hadn't felt like that for a good five months and it reminds me why I haven't allowed myself to become that vulnerable any more.
I am also seeing someone at the moment, and he's really lovely he makes me laugh he puts the cheesiest grin on my face like a Cheshire cat! Haha
But I have told him I'm not rushing into anything because I really like him but I haven't got that feeling yet where I'm sure I want him.
You see, when I'm with him I don't want to leave him but when I'm with him I don't miss him as such yet..
And he knows the situation that we are just seeing each other but when we are together we act like a couple we hold hands like a couple we kiss like a couple we take the piss like a couple we do all the couple things and I love it. I think it's because i have missed it but I need to be sure because I'm only nineteen and again I told him this and I don't know what I want I may think I like him but is it really something I want to go through again? I'm not saying it will happen but you can't blame me for worrying although he has made his feelings completely clear, but when I usually know it's going to turn into something I listen to songs and they remind me of him which is happening right now I listen to stuff and it reminds me of him and then I have that little flutter but then I get in this mood where I just can't be arsed with anything or seeing anyone and usually I just want to be around one person which is Gemma most of the time. I then read this and I know I'm confused I just need to open up more. I need to let a guy in and not have a defensive barrier around me saying is this what you want? When I should just go with the flow and if it doesn't work it doesn't work, and I may think this is what I want but then I could want something completely different.
Anyway alexisonfire Rough Hands is still one of my favourite songs and it was the most played on the ipod I believe. I just forgot which is stupid really. Also reminds me of my young warehouse times well boiled frogs does more and this could be anywhere in the world and accidents. haha warehouse is good always good times :)
Then there is the one of the lead singers Dallas Green who has an acoustic band called city and colour which was again one of my favourite bands when I was at college it's a bit emo but I still loved the song.
:)
I'm sure I will figure out what to do I always have got through stuff.
"And now blank stares and empty threats, there all I have"
Wednesday 2 June 2010
:)))))
well i couldn't be happier right now, yes shit is probably coming my way but fuck it!
:)
and do you mind?
that's my song!!!
haha :)
:)
and do you mind?
that's my song!!!
haha :)
Saturday 22 May 2010
what goes up must come down.
I need to think about other things.
Rather than the past year.
1. I don't hate you.
2. I didn't mean to crash into a tree.
haha.
but it's not funny i could be dead.
3. Thankyou for making me realise.
4. I never knew what love was.
5. I'm learning from that.
6. Money= save it.
7. Don't believe what everyone tells you.
8. Take oppurtunites when they come to you.
9. Life is a bundle of fun enjoy it while you can.
10. I'm sorry again.
11. I'm okay with it.
12. Make your decisions more wisely.
13. Look after yourself.
14. Start singing, properly.
15. Drive like a sane person.
16. Never let your friends down.
17. Appreciate your family more.
18. Don't do anything to rash.
19. Fall in love it's the best thing ever.
20. Never take yourself for granted.
21. The future will be amazing unless you don't let it.
22. Make every moment count.
23. No regrets.
24. Quit smoking.
25. Don't hold a grudge life's too short too do that.
26. You were never good at holding grudges anyway.
27. Stop acting so dumb.
28. Let people in abit more.
29. Don't do drugs.
30. Listen to music.
31. Dance because you want to.
32. Be whoever you want to be.
33. Don't take no crap from anyone.
34. Life is a can of peaches.
haha.
35. you were never a philospher although you always wished you had taken philisophy.
I guess
this is a checklist to myself. To make sure i don't miss out.
Because i have held my head down and now it' time to just shine.
Rather than the past year.
1. I don't hate you.
2. I didn't mean to crash into a tree.
haha.
but it's not funny i could be dead.
3. Thankyou for making me realise.
4. I never knew what love was.
5. I'm learning from that.
6. Money= save it.
7. Don't believe what everyone tells you.
8. Take oppurtunites when they come to you.
9. Life is a bundle of fun enjoy it while you can.
10. I'm sorry again.
11. I'm okay with it.
12. Make your decisions more wisely.
13. Look after yourself.
14. Start singing, properly.
15. Drive like a sane person.
16. Never let your friends down.
17. Appreciate your family more.
18. Don't do anything to rash.
19. Fall in love it's the best thing ever.
20. Never take yourself for granted.
21. The future will be amazing unless you don't let it.
22. Make every moment count.
23. No regrets.
24. Quit smoking.
25. Don't hold a grudge life's too short too do that.
26. You were never good at holding grudges anyway.
27. Stop acting so dumb.
28. Let people in abit more.
29. Don't do drugs.
30. Listen to music.
31. Dance because you want to.
32. Be whoever you want to be.
33. Don't take no crap from anyone.
34. Life is a can of peaches.
haha.
35. you were never a philospher although you always wished you had taken philisophy.
I guess
this is a checklist to myself. To make sure i don't miss out.
Because i have held my head down and now it' time to just shine.
Thursday 20 May 2010
Why do you have to go and be somebody like you.
I miss limp bizkit.
I love this song too.
I miss being a dirty mosher.
But this will by far be one of my favourite limp bizkit songs till the end of time!
"I'm so sorry, so sorry your beauty is so vain" bestpart!
if you don't agree shut ya mouth.
sorry the best part starts at 3:29.
woah i could have Fred Durst anyday.
Again this one has got me moooooving!!
complete opposite to Limp bizkit.
I love this song too.
I miss being a dirty mosher.
But this will by far be one of my favourite limp bizkit songs till the end of time!
"I'm so sorry, so sorry your beauty is so vain" bestpart!
if you don't agree shut ya mouth.
sorry the best part starts at 3:29.
woah i could have Fred Durst anyday.
Again this one has got me moooooving!!
complete opposite to Limp bizkit.
Wednesday 19 May 2010
You left me in the dark
A fallen star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
This is by far my favourite song of all time, I really mean that.
There hasn't been a day since I found it where i haven't listened to it.
If this song were a man i would be in love with him right now.
Haha :)
Tuesday 18 May 2010
I hope I get you.
I have that feeling everytime I see him.
That butterfly feeling when you go all shy and don't really know what to say to him.
It's emabaressing for me because i'm not shy of talking.
But he, actually puts a big grin on my face when i get a text from him.
And he puts the hugest smile on my face and makes me want to not leave when he's around.
I haven't been this excited in ages.
It's really complicated though.
You could say he's not my type but he is.
We both can just chat shit to each other and give shit to one another and know we aren't going to think we're weird.
He knows how i feel alot.
I actually just plucked up the courage and asked him if he was interested.
And he said yes and then he brought in the ex...
You see, i'm staying well clear at the moment because he only has recently split with her and i don't want to get involved in that.
But i really like him, and i have this frame of mind at the moment that i don't really want to be with anyone or get to any guys just purely because they are more hassle than they're worth which resulted in me actually hurting this guy flynn a couple of months ago i talked about him on here before but i just couldn't do it.
We were different people as well, and the one thing that really put me off him is that he smoked alot of weed and now that i don't do that and haven't done for a long time didn't make me see how it would work. Because i'd probably be dragged back into that and i don't want that it fucks with you seriously.
I get really worried about my brother and my friends because they do smoke it and i never do it when i'm with them but i just think about how much they're doing it and it scares the fucking life out of me. I once confronted Liam about it and he knew it was problem. I can't say much though smoking i think is equally bad but i just can't seem to not put a fag down and think my lungs are going black inside of me your nannas in hospital.
You would think by how much i love my nanna i would stop.
And i really love her.
When i go up to visit i never want to leave.
Anyway shes a touchy subject with me and i always start to feel my eyes stinging.
But not alot of people know how ill she is just a few mates.
Anyway back to this boy, like i said he's not my usual type.. he's sort of a preppy boy...
Doesn't drive..
Has dark hair and dark eyes lacking the tallness but thats not a problem..
I usual go for quite well...
When i look at a guy i look at hair..
it's shallow i know but i do then i look at their feet haha
to see what shoes they are wearing.
And then i look at their eyes and i normally go for blue eyed boys.
But he's different but i'm just waiting till he figures out what he wants because he's confused me alot.
:)
I have my options though he's not the only one i have been looking at jokejoke!
I'm a one guy girl. Would never cheat on anyone!
Anyway it's Gemmas birthday on Friday and I can't wait! She already knows i'm buying her soulcaliber hahaha and another ps3 controller ahaha so i can play.
I'm a nice friend.
I have been playing soulcaliber and tekken like non-stop since last weekend. i'm fucking addicted.
and annoyed that i can now eventually buy live and then remembered that me ad liam had our xbox chipped and now we are banned. MOTHERFUCKERS.
But then i could go to the darkside and invest in a ps3??
Then i would be able to go on live aqnd not pay for it!
But i had the best day today just cruised into garstang met adz and lee at the pub had a pint which i had been craving for because it was so sunny today!
Then we went and met up with helen and arthur by the river and just chilled till the sun went away i love days like those!
ASjhkldshgwaf there's so much to look forward to this summer!!
:D i can't fucking wait for whit monday weekend it's going to be messy times!
I can't wait to go to the beach and eat a 99! haha :)
And wear my shortsssssss.
Go to the beer gardens!
I just can't tell myself enough how much i love my friends though,
i just woudln't be the same without them.
I hate staying at home i have to be out or just get annoyed at myself.
I just can't wait for this year and the next year and the year after that
because i don't know whats going to happen and i don't want to predict whats going to happen. I hope good things come my way and for everyone!
I'm going to be really sad right now but this is how i realised it was good, I was walking just past arthurs house and i could just smell the summer air and for a second i was just like woah it smells good life is good i feel good i just can't wait!!!!
haaa
i should really stop writing before i start explaning to you how much i love the sky and space and how much we as a human race don't know about it.
It actually amazes me.
hdsahlkdskhdfkfd
i think i have done enough writing for one night.
That butterfly feeling when you go all shy and don't really know what to say to him.
It's emabaressing for me because i'm not shy of talking.
But he, actually puts a big grin on my face when i get a text from him.
And he puts the hugest smile on my face and makes me want to not leave when he's around.
I haven't been this excited in ages.
It's really complicated though.
You could say he's not my type but he is.
We both can just chat shit to each other and give shit to one another and know we aren't going to think we're weird.
He knows how i feel alot.
I actually just plucked up the courage and asked him if he was interested.
And he said yes and then he brought in the ex...
You see, i'm staying well clear at the moment because he only has recently split with her and i don't want to get involved in that.
But i really like him, and i have this frame of mind at the moment that i don't really want to be with anyone or get to any guys just purely because they are more hassle than they're worth which resulted in me actually hurting this guy flynn a couple of months ago i talked about him on here before but i just couldn't do it.
We were different people as well, and the one thing that really put me off him is that he smoked alot of weed and now that i don't do that and haven't done for a long time didn't make me see how it would work. Because i'd probably be dragged back into that and i don't want that it fucks with you seriously.
I get really worried about my brother and my friends because they do smoke it and i never do it when i'm with them but i just think about how much they're doing it and it scares the fucking life out of me. I once confronted Liam about it and he knew it was problem. I can't say much though smoking i think is equally bad but i just can't seem to not put a fag down and think my lungs are going black inside of me your nannas in hospital.
You would think by how much i love my nanna i would stop.
And i really love her.
When i go up to visit i never want to leave.
Anyway shes a touchy subject with me and i always start to feel my eyes stinging.
But not alot of people know how ill she is just a few mates.
Anyway back to this boy, like i said he's not my usual type.. he's sort of a preppy boy...
Doesn't drive..
Has dark hair and dark eyes lacking the tallness but thats not a problem..
I usual go for quite well...
When i look at a guy i look at hair..
it's shallow i know but i do then i look at their feet haha
to see what shoes they are wearing.
And then i look at their eyes and i normally go for blue eyed boys.
But he's different but i'm just waiting till he figures out what he wants because he's confused me alot.
:)
I have my options though he's not the only one i have been looking at jokejoke!
I'm a one guy girl. Would never cheat on anyone!
Anyway it's Gemmas birthday on Friday and I can't wait! She already knows i'm buying her soulcaliber hahaha and another ps3 controller ahaha so i can play.
I'm a nice friend.
I have been playing soulcaliber and tekken like non-stop since last weekend. i'm fucking addicted.
and annoyed that i can now eventually buy live and then remembered that me ad liam had our xbox chipped and now we are banned. MOTHERFUCKERS.
But then i could go to the darkside and invest in a ps3??
Then i would be able to go on live aqnd not pay for it!
But i had the best day today just cruised into garstang met adz and lee at the pub had a pint which i had been craving for because it was so sunny today!
Then we went and met up with helen and arthur by the river and just chilled till the sun went away i love days like those!
ASjhkldshgwaf there's so much to look forward to this summer!!
:D i can't fucking wait for whit monday weekend it's going to be messy times!
I can't wait to go to the beach and eat a 99! haha :)
And wear my shortsssssss.
Go to the beer gardens!
I just can't tell myself enough how much i love my friends though,
i just woudln't be the same without them.
I hate staying at home i have to be out or just get annoyed at myself.
I just can't wait for this year and the next year and the year after that
because i don't know whats going to happen and i don't want to predict whats going to happen. I hope good things come my way and for everyone!
I'm going to be really sad right now but this is how i realised it was good, I was walking just past arthurs house and i could just smell the summer air and for a second i was just like woah it smells good life is good i feel good i just can't wait!!!!
haaa
i should really stop writing before i start explaning to you how much i love the sky and space and how much we as a human race don't know about it.
It actually amazes me.
hdsahlkdskhdfkfd
i think i have done enough writing for one night.
Saturday 15 May 2010
Je Veux
I want a big fancy car.
I want to live in america.
I want money.
I want love.
I want outdoors
I WANT music.
I want a stage.
I want a hug everyday.
I want sunshine everyday.
I want to eat and not worry about weight.
I want to lie in every morning.
I want to build a house one day.
I want to be successful.
I want to not care.
I want to care more about world issues.
I want to know more.
I want understand everything.
I want to speak four languages.
I want to go to Japan and Australia and Argentina.
I want my hair to be perfect 24/7
I want to stop smoking.
I want to be organised.
I want to be tidier.
I want to be thinner.
I want to be better.
I want to keep my friends forever.
I want to watch cheesy shit.
I want to listen to gangsta rap.
I want to listen to heavy bassline.
I want to go wherever i want to go.
I want to go to nasa.
I want to be with the stars.
I want a telescope.
I want kids.
I want.
I want.
I want.
But you can't have.
unless you try.
I want to live in america.
I want money.
I want love.
I want outdoors
I WANT music.
I want a stage.
I want a hug everyday.
I want sunshine everyday.
I want to eat and not worry about weight.
I want to lie in every morning.
I want to build a house one day.
I want to be successful.
I want to not care.
I want to care more about world issues.
I want to know more.
I want understand everything.
I want to speak four languages.
I want to go to Japan and Australia and Argentina.
I want my hair to be perfect 24/7
I want to stop smoking.
I want to be organised.
I want to be tidier.
I want to be thinner.
I want to be better.
I want to keep my friends forever.
I want to watch cheesy shit.
I want to listen to gangsta rap.
I want to listen to heavy bassline.
I want to go wherever i want to go.
I want to go to nasa.
I want to be with the stars.
I want a telescope.
I want kids.
I want.
I want.
I want.
But you can't have.
unless you try.
Monday 3 May 2010
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone.
I really do like spending time with myself sometimes but then i tend over think then, you wouldn't think i liked my solitude if you ever meet me but i do.
Sometimes your brain gets overworked and you need to slow down.
I have been overloaded with information these couple of days some of it i don't want know.
The thing is that you have all these thoughts and sometimes it's thoughts you don't share with anyone and my head is becoming crammed with little ideas not bad ones but just ideas of what to do next..
The way i see it is that i'm 20 this year not for another six months or so, but i'm thinking i need to tie up loose ends.
For a starters get my self a decent car that isn't going to break down me all the time haha.
Then get myself a deposit maybe someone cool to move in with..
They'd have to put up with my constant singing and be able to get shitfaced every weekend (Y) and love loud music!
And maybe find myself a nice boy.
I have been getting sick of boys recently.
It's like i love going out, but all the attention is mainly aimed at my chest and whether i'm going to sleep with you.
You know its nice to talk about shit sometimes. =/
Anyway i found loads of cdss under my bed in a box which is still unpacked!! I really do need to sort my shit out it's everywhere..
Like really random cds from the nineties! haha backstreet boys god someone stab me.
And I FOUND MY PS2!! AND ALL THE GAMES IN THE LOFT! and it still works well on old skool gta!!!
anyway just a random update really...
Sometimes your brain gets overworked and you need to slow down.
I have been overloaded with information these couple of days some of it i don't want know.
The thing is that you have all these thoughts and sometimes it's thoughts you don't share with anyone and my head is becoming crammed with little ideas not bad ones but just ideas of what to do next..
The way i see it is that i'm 20 this year not for another six months or so, but i'm thinking i need to tie up loose ends.
For a starters get my self a decent car that isn't going to break down me all the time haha.
Then get myself a deposit maybe someone cool to move in with..
They'd have to put up with my constant singing and be able to get shitfaced every weekend (Y) and love loud music!
And maybe find myself a nice boy.
I have been getting sick of boys recently.
It's like i love going out, but all the attention is mainly aimed at my chest and whether i'm going to sleep with you.
You know its nice to talk about shit sometimes. =/
Anyway i found loads of cdss under my bed in a box which is still unpacked!! I really do need to sort my shit out it's everywhere..
Like really random cds from the nineties! haha backstreet boys god someone stab me.
And I FOUND MY PS2!! AND ALL THE GAMES IN THE LOFT! and it still works well on old skool gta!!!
anyway just a random update really...
Sunday 2 May 2010
New Job and other things
So the new job is going great i love it!
I really can't wait to learn more i have learnt so much in three days and it really has me interested!
I never thought in a hundred years i would be an estate agent but i am and i really like it, i suppose i had to realise sometime i wasn't going to be famous eh?
haha.
But on the other hand it really got me thinking about getting house myself how many years it would take to save some money for a deposit i would also have to take out a loan too... but i can cope with that!
But i'm a bit bored and it's a saturday night so i thought i would answer these random questions....
What is your full name?
-Laura Lorraine Masson
When is your birthday?
-30th of October 1990
Where do you live?
- I am currently living just outside of St Michaels this is in Lancashire.
Do you have siblings? How many?
- Yes i'm the eldest of four
What is the most embarrassing moment of your life?
- Easy primary two weed myself in front of the whole class!
What is your favorite food?
- I love chicken. But i have just gotten into mexican food i love it!
What is your favorite Drink?
- If we are going non-alcoholic it has to be Coca-cola!! Alcoholic simple. VODKA lime and lemonade
What is your favorite color?
- Red
What is your favorite book?
-Wuthering heights i love that book but i do like the twilight sagas sorry guys but the books are better than the films!
Who is your favorite actor?
- I love anything with Will ferrel in. But i do like Nicole Kidman an awful lot.
Who is your favorite author?
- Stephenie meyer for the moment..
What is your favorite TV show?
- two Family guy and south park!
What is your favorite song?
- Now this is a ridculous question! I have so many fave songs it's untrue but for the moment it's plan b welcome to hell. Or Tito and Ms Porsh Drop its a catchy tune..
What is your favorite movie?
- Sin City or Pulp fiction anything by tarantino really, Kill Bills.. that kind of thing but not inglorious basterds i thought it was terrible.
What is your favorite car?
- Well i would love a bugatti Veyron but that is never going to happen so i will settle for a Honda civic type r? please..
Who do you love most in the world?
- I love Gemma and Jade the most :) apart from my family obviously but they just know me inside and out and i love them lotsss!
Are you married?
- Nope. One day hopefully..
Are you in a relationship?
- nopeee and don't want to be in one at the moment can't be bothered!
Do you have a crush on someone?
- yess :)
What is your best friend's name?
- Andy Dewhurst he would kill me if i didn't put him in there!! Gemma Hudson and Jade Moscrop.
What do you like most in guys?
- I love confidence but not too much that he is a right dick and humour, and i love it when a guy approaches me by the way, girls like that!!
Who do you look like?
- I have been told once before Kelly Osbourne.. and Duffy but that was when i was blonde.
What color is your hair?
- Reddd!!
What color are your eyes?
- I was told they look blue but i think they are green who knowssssss!
What is your religion?
- I don't really have an opinion on it anymore either way until jesus shakes my hand and does a whole load of mircales in front of my eyes then i will believe.
Are you / do you want to / have graduated from college?
- I have left collegee!
What did you/ are going to major in?
- I did Performing arts and english. I could have done alot better in my english but at the time there was so much distractions in my life i didn't even try.
Do you work? If so, what is your profession?
- I do work and my main job is i'm negotiator for Entwistle Green in Longridge and i love it i have another job which is just for a little extra cash and thats at Little Ducklings Nursery it's only supply so they ring me when they need meee!
What does your name mean?
- Laurel latin equivalent taken from the laurel tree..
What do you value most in a person?
- Honesty and decency. Honesty is the best policy.
Where would you like to live?
- I'm thinking the states big houses sunshine big cities lots happening.
Do you want to get married?
- I really do.. At the end of the day i was born to be a mother and have three kids and have a nice house good job and life is sweeet.. just need to find a guy who can live up to my expectations hahaha! This is a dream by the way..
Do you want to have kids?
- Yes three and if they are three boys they will be called ALVIN, SIMON & THEODORE. NO QUESTIONS ASKED PLEASE. haha and if i have a girl first or a girl at all.. She will be called Grace i love that name.
Do you have a personal website you would like people to visit?
- Only this one..
What do you hate most in a person?
- Dishonesty, rude, full of themselves. One minded people who always think they are right but really need to broaden thier minds and learn that the world doesn't revolve aorund you and maybe if you did actually stop being grumpy assholeeess and tried something new you might actually like it. that basically.
What is your favorite quote?
- It's from hot rod..
Rod " you look pretty..."
Denise " What did you say??"
Rod " I SAID YOU LOOOK SHITTTYYY!!"
Where would your dream vacation be?
- Anywhere that is just buzzing full of life and young people and very much about our generation with times sort of thing.
What is your favorite animal?
- Dogs, I do like cats but i love my dogs and can't wait till i can buy my own puppy i want an alsation again :(
What is your phobia?
- I hate spiders, heights, driving down the motorway... being left on my own in town... My phone dying and my car breaks down.. Never getting out of my mum and dads house
Are you republican or Democratic?
- I wish i would pay more attention to politics seeing as woman did die for me to have a vote i feel entitled too but i haven't this time round because i don't know enough about it but i would actually like to know more because Gordon Brown doesn't know what the fuck he is doing if you ask me.
Do you think President Obama is a good President?
- I think he has fair views so therefore he's alright.
Do you like MTV?
- Yeah i do back in the oldskool days when it was just music music not five different channels and shows like teen moms ... and all that crap although i do love cribs..
Do you like VH1?
- depends if its a good nineties tune i love it.
Do you believe in Heaven?
- I don't know.
Do you believe in Hell?
- I don't know.
Do you believe in the devil?
- I don't know.
Are you an early riser?
- I am now with this new job but no, i am not an early riser. I would stay in bed all day if i could.
What is your dream profession?
-Singer/songwriter. Will never happen.
What was the most exciting moment of your life?
- I haven't experienced half of my life yet so i could something more exciting in the future!
What was the most frightening moment of your life?
- When i crashed my car last year. I have never ever been so scared.
What book would you recommend for others to read?
- Wuthering heights.
Do you have any allergies?
- No but i am allergic to some facial scrubs. And shampoos.
What is your best physical feature?
My boobs.. and my eyes. so i have been told..
How many countries have you traveled?
- I have only ever been to France and Corfu.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Yes i recently had someone stamp on it. And literally rip it out of my chest but it's back in there now without him.
Have you ever broken one?
- I hope i haven't it's a horrible feeling. So i apologise if i have. :(
Are you superstitious?
I am a little but i don't follow the rules really..
I really can't wait to learn more i have learnt so much in three days and it really has me interested!
I never thought in a hundred years i would be an estate agent but i am and i really like it, i suppose i had to realise sometime i wasn't going to be famous eh?
haha.
But on the other hand it really got me thinking about getting house myself how many years it would take to save some money for a deposit i would also have to take out a loan too... but i can cope with that!
But i'm a bit bored and it's a saturday night so i thought i would answer these random questions....
What is your full name?
-Laura Lorraine Masson
When is your birthday?
-30th of October 1990
Where do you live?
- I am currently living just outside of St Michaels this is in Lancashire.
Do you have siblings? How many?
- Yes i'm the eldest of four
What is the most embarrassing moment of your life?
- Easy primary two weed myself in front of the whole class!
What is your favorite food?
- I love chicken. But i have just gotten into mexican food i love it!
What is your favorite Drink?
- If we are going non-alcoholic it has to be Coca-cola!! Alcoholic simple. VODKA lime and lemonade
What is your favorite color?
- Red
What is your favorite book?
-Wuthering heights i love that book but i do like the twilight sagas sorry guys but the books are better than the films!
Who is your favorite actor?
- I love anything with Will ferrel in. But i do like Nicole Kidman an awful lot.
Who is your favorite author?
- Stephenie meyer for the moment..
What is your favorite TV show?
- two Family guy and south park!
What is your favorite song?
- Now this is a ridculous question! I have so many fave songs it's untrue but for the moment it's plan b welcome to hell. Or Tito and Ms Porsh Drop its a catchy tune..
What is your favorite movie?
- Sin City or Pulp fiction anything by tarantino really, Kill Bills.. that kind of thing but not inglorious basterds i thought it was terrible.
What is your favorite car?
- Well i would love a bugatti Veyron but that is never going to happen so i will settle for a Honda civic type r? please..
Who do you love most in the world?
- I love Gemma and Jade the most :) apart from my family obviously but they just know me inside and out and i love them lotsss!
Are you married?
- Nope. One day hopefully..
Are you in a relationship?
- nopeee and don't want to be in one at the moment can't be bothered!
Do you have a crush on someone?
- yess :)
What is your best friend's name?
- Andy Dewhurst he would kill me if i didn't put him in there!! Gemma Hudson and Jade Moscrop.
What do you like most in guys?
- I love confidence but not too much that he is a right dick and humour, and i love it when a guy approaches me by the way, girls like that!!
Who do you look like?
- I have been told once before Kelly Osbourne.. and Duffy but that was when i was blonde.
What color is your hair?
- Reddd!!
What color are your eyes?
- I was told they look blue but i think they are green who knowssssss!
What is your religion?
- I don't really have an opinion on it anymore either way until jesus shakes my hand and does a whole load of mircales in front of my eyes then i will believe.
Are you / do you want to / have graduated from college?
- I have left collegee!
What did you/ are going to major in?
- I did Performing arts and english. I could have done alot better in my english but at the time there was so much distractions in my life i didn't even try.
Do you work? If so, what is your profession?
- I do work and my main job is i'm negotiator for Entwistle Green in Longridge and i love it i have another job which is just for a little extra cash and thats at Little Ducklings Nursery it's only supply so they ring me when they need meee!
What does your name mean?
- Laurel latin equivalent taken from the laurel tree..
What do you value most in a person?
- Honesty and decency. Honesty is the best policy.
Where would you like to live?
- I'm thinking the states big houses sunshine big cities lots happening.
Do you want to get married?
- I really do.. At the end of the day i was born to be a mother and have three kids and have a nice house good job and life is sweeet.. just need to find a guy who can live up to my expectations hahaha! This is a dream by the way..
Do you want to have kids?
- Yes three and if they are three boys they will be called ALVIN, SIMON & THEODORE. NO QUESTIONS ASKED PLEASE. haha and if i have a girl first or a girl at all.. She will be called Grace i love that name.
Do you have a personal website you would like people to visit?
- Only this one..
What do you hate most in a person?
- Dishonesty, rude, full of themselves. One minded people who always think they are right but really need to broaden thier minds and learn that the world doesn't revolve aorund you and maybe if you did actually stop being grumpy assholeeess and tried something new you might actually like it. that basically.
What is your favorite quote?
- It's from hot rod..
Rod " you look pretty..."
Denise " What did you say??"
Rod " I SAID YOU LOOOK SHITTTYYY!!"
Where would your dream vacation be?
- Anywhere that is just buzzing full of life and young people and very much about our generation with times sort of thing.
What is your favorite animal?
- Dogs, I do like cats but i love my dogs and can't wait till i can buy my own puppy i want an alsation again :(
What is your phobia?
- I hate spiders, heights, driving down the motorway... being left on my own in town... My phone dying and my car breaks down.. Never getting out of my mum and dads house
Are you republican or Democratic?
- I wish i would pay more attention to politics seeing as woman did die for me to have a vote i feel entitled too but i haven't this time round because i don't know enough about it but i would actually like to know more because Gordon Brown doesn't know what the fuck he is doing if you ask me.
Do you think President Obama is a good President?
- I think he has fair views so therefore he's alright.
Do you like MTV?
- Yeah i do back in the oldskool days when it was just music music not five different channels and shows like teen moms ... and all that crap although i do love cribs..
Do you like VH1?
- depends if its a good nineties tune i love it.
Do you believe in Heaven?
- I don't know.
Do you believe in Hell?
- I don't know.
Do you believe in the devil?
- I don't know.
Are you an early riser?
- I am now with this new job but no, i am not an early riser. I would stay in bed all day if i could.
What is your dream profession?
-Singer/songwriter. Will never happen.
What was the most exciting moment of your life?
- I haven't experienced half of my life yet so i could something more exciting in the future!
What was the most frightening moment of your life?
- When i crashed my car last year. I have never ever been so scared.
What book would you recommend for others to read?
- Wuthering heights.
Do you have any allergies?
- No but i am allergic to some facial scrubs. And shampoos.
What is your best physical feature?
My boobs.. and my eyes. so i have been told..
How many countries have you traveled?
- I have only ever been to France and Corfu.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Yes i recently had someone stamp on it. And literally rip it out of my chest but it's back in there now without him.
Have you ever broken one?
- I hope i haven't it's a horrible feeling. So i apologise if i have. :(
Are you superstitious?
I am a little but i don't follow the rules really..
Wednesday 28 April 2010
Dear me.
So tomorrow, you are going to start your new job. Don't mess it up, give your absolute best because this could be your career. You have been thinking alot and you have decided what the hell you are doing.
1. Your young enjoy your fucking life stop worrying 24/7.
2. You don't have to do anything drastic till your thirty haha.
3. If life was boring you would be dead you don't like boring,
4. You like being single and you like having your options you always have done.
5. You don't have to rush into anything..
don't worry, it will be fine stop worrying about this new job.
And life is made for living Laura so fucking live it like you have been doing exploring every oppurtunity and you have done it now more than ever.
Even Jade knows you have found who you are,
and your happy with that and remember you have the rest of your life to figure out truly what you want to do but just go with the flow, like you have been doing...
1. Your young enjoy your fucking life stop worrying 24/7.
2. You don't have to do anything drastic till your thirty haha.
3. If life was boring you would be dead you don't like boring,
4. You like being single and you like having your options you always have done.
5. You don't have to rush into anything..
don't worry, it will be fine stop worrying about this new job.
And life is made for living Laura so fucking live it like you have been doing exploring every oppurtunity and you have done it now more than ever.
Even Jade knows you have found who you are,
and your happy with that and remember you have the rest of your life to figure out truly what you want to do but just go with the flow, like you have been doing...
Just a quick one.
Plan B.
and Gemma.
Sounds like the
the
best
thing
ever.
And
thanks
GEMMA
for copying me the cd :D
and
WE LOVE THAT DIRTY GRIME BEATZ,
:)
night.
and Gemma.
Sounds like the
the
best
thing
ever.
And
thanks
GEMMA
for copying me the cd :D
and
WE LOVE THAT DIRTY GRIME BEATZ,
:)
night.
Wednesday 21 April 2010
Things are looking up!
For the first time in awhile i can honestly hand on heart say I'm so happy :)
So I have so much to tell in so little time well when i go to bed, which is another thing I'm getting back into my own little routines i used to have going to bed at like five in the morning after talking to randomers on isketch haha!
And to a boy :)
But carrying on this girl has changed not completely but i feel like i have grown up, i still like all the things i like i just think i have a clearer view on the way i see things.
For example i was sick of working in that pub. The Crofters it was only something to keep me going until i found something better and i have! I am now working still part time but i have another job too which i will tell you about in a minute! I now work for Entwistle Green estate agents :) I get 10k a year plus commission which i think is fair good because you get it for a lot of things it's such a good opportunity i couldn't refuse and then i get paid 6.70 an hour for being a supply worker at little ducklings nursery i don't do that for work though i do it because i love it little kids minds are so imaginative i wish i was that small when i used to play with my best friends the bumble bee king! Haa basically i was the princess and David was the big bumble bee and i had to run away and escape and then the butterfly queen would rescue me. Haha i so wish i was that small again though, you had no worries, didn't have to think about money or cars, or relationships or careers all you did was paint pictures and play in the sand if only life were that simple...
But i start next Thursday and I'm really looking forward to it i can't wait!!
And then it brings me to my next adventure I'm going to get a place i have been saving and saving my little ass off and have come up with 700 quid for a deposit on somewhere for me i don't care if it's shared i can't continue sharing a room with my two younger sisters, and it was especially awkward the other night when i wanted to bring a male friend round and then remembered that i share room with my two younger sisters I'm twenty this year and i want to start making my own way :)
I'M ALSO GOING TO LEEDS. TO SEE PARAMORE BLINK 182 LIMP BIZKIT AND FOALS AND MANY MORE FUCKING GOOD BANDS.
i thought I'd put that in there ;)
ahaaa!
Also going to men.
I got worried about one boy a couple of days ago he doesn't know i look out for him but i do, he probably doesn't want me too... because we're sort of on bad termssssss.
But i know he doesn't like a few things and i respected him for that so i never did it. But i do know why he doesn't and i do know a few things because of that and what it has done to him now..
but i like to stay away from him. But i wish we were friends because sometimes funny shit happens to me and i want to tell him because he knew me for doing some stupid shit. haha :) we had some good times. But i still care i hope I'm still allowed to care. I hope that's not weird either....
I don't have any feelings for him anymore and i don't think i ever will again ever.
But I miss his friendship, because that was ace.
But i have moved on from that and i realise i wouldn't have had feelings like do for this other boy, if i was with him.
which brings me to him.
He's not my typical guy i go for basically he's caught me off guard by how much I'm into him i like him alot basically and i can't help it I'm so sad, i hope he comes in sometimes because he's so lovely to talk to and he has me laughing because of his witty comments and humour in general and that is one way to get me interested make me laugh :)
But i got a little confused but he made things clearer its a shame really, because he's sort of going through what i was going through not sure if your over that person enough to start getting to know someone else a bit better like that...
and he hasn't told me that exactly but i know that's what it is...
But i really would love to get to know him, i don't know what it is but he gives me those little butterflies when i first see him..
and then i know i like him and i haven't had that feeling for awhile..
and i forgot how good it felt :)
but I'm just taking my time i don't want to rush i just want to enjoy it while i can until one day for whatever reason it goes..
well lets face it things don't last forever.
I hope my phone does though ahah how bad is that, but its beautiful :)
But apart from that like i hayley sings, ;) Things are looking up well finally! I thought i'd never see the day when you'd smile at me <3
i'm out people its twenty past one and i need a fag and wooo day off tomorrow :D
xx
So I have so much to tell in so little time well when i go to bed, which is another thing I'm getting back into my own little routines i used to have going to bed at like five in the morning after talking to randomers on isketch haha!
And to a boy :)
But carrying on this girl has changed not completely but i feel like i have grown up, i still like all the things i like i just think i have a clearer view on the way i see things.
For example i was sick of working in that pub. The Crofters it was only something to keep me going until i found something better and i have! I am now working still part time but i have another job too which i will tell you about in a minute! I now work for Entwistle Green estate agents :) I get 10k a year plus commission which i think is fair good because you get it for a lot of things it's such a good opportunity i couldn't refuse and then i get paid 6.70 an hour for being a supply worker at little ducklings nursery i don't do that for work though i do it because i love it little kids minds are so imaginative i wish i was that small when i used to play with my best friends the bumble bee king! Haa basically i was the princess and David was the big bumble bee and i had to run away and escape and then the butterfly queen would rescue me. Haha i so wish i was that small again though, you had no worries, didn't have to think about money or cars, or relationships or careers all you did was paint pictures and play in the sand if only life were that simple...
But i start next Thursday and I'm really looking forward to it i can't wait!!
And then it brings me to my next adventure I'm going to get a place i have been saving and saving my little ass off and have come up with 700 quid for a deposit on somewhere for me i don't care if it's shared i can't continue sharing a room with my two younger sisters, and it was especially awkward the other night when i wanted to bring a male friend round and then remembered that i share room with my two younger sisters I'm twenty this year and i want to start making my own way :)
I'M ALSO GOING TO LEEDS. TO SEE PARAMORE BLINK 182 LIMP BIZKIT AND FOALS AND MANY MORE FUCKING GOOD BANDS.
i thought I'd put that in there ;)
ahaaa!
Also going to men.
I got worried about one boy a couple of days ago he doesn't know i look out for him but i do, he probably doesn't want me too... because we're sort of on bad termssssss.
But i know he doesn't like a few things and i respected him for that so i never did it. But i do know why he doesn't and i do know a few things because of that and what it has done to him now..
but i like to stay away from him. But i wish we were friends because sometimes funny shit happens to me and i want to tell him because he knew me for doing some stupid shit. haha :) we had some good times. But i still care i hope I'm still allowed to care. I hope that's not weird either....
I don't have any feelings for him anymore and i don't think i ever will again ever.
But I miss his friendship, because that was ace.
But i have moved on from that and i realise i wouldn't have had feelings like do for this other boy, if i was with him.
which brings me to him.
He's not my typical guy i go for basically he's caught me off guard by how much I'm into him i like him alot basically and i can't help it I'm so sad, i hope he comes in sometimes because he's so lovely to talk to and he has me laughing because of his witty comments and humour in general and that is one way to get me interested make me laugh :)
But i got a little confused but he made things clearer its a shame really, because he's sort of going through what i was going through not sure if your over that person enough to start getting to know someone else a bit better like that...
and he hasn't told me that exactly but i know that's what it is...
But i really would love to get to know him, i don't know what it is but he gives me those little butterflies when i first see him..
and then i know i like him and i haven't had that feeling for awhile..
and i forgot how good it felt :)
but I'm just taking my time i don't want to rush i just want to enjoy it while i can until one day for whatever reason it goes..
well lets face it things don't last forever.
I hope my phone does though ahah how bad is that, but its beautiful :)
But apart from that like i hayley sings, ;) Things are looking up well finally! I thought i'd never see the day when you'd smile at me <3
i'm out people its twenty past one and i need a fag and wooo day off tomorrow :D
xx
Tuesday 16 March 2010
Hooooooooooowdy :D
So let me tell you whats going on with me first of all :)
My car is getting fixed so it will be sweeeeeeet again ;) and new speakers oh my life i can't wait!
Secondly i am enjoying myself back at my usual haunts ROPERRR AND WAREHOUSE ;) saving my pennies toooo!
Going to Alton towers sooooon as well fuck life is good and there's someone :)
well we are on chit chat level right now but its sweet and he doesn't know it :)))
eeee :)
I'm at Gemmas at the moment and getting ready to go out to warehouse tonight Tuesday warehouse times :) I haven't been to warehouse single in a while and it's always better ;) because at this moment in time I have more confidence than I have ever had ;)
Which i don't think is a bad thing just makes me stronger also, I sympathise with everyone who has ever had tooth ache had to go to fucking hospital last night I was in so much pain and it's being taken out next Monday I NEVER have problems with my teeth ever!
Anyway I have bee getting back to the music that I used to listen too! I feel like its summer 07 all over again down in Ribchester with a few people missing but they will be back from uni soon so hopefully my plans will go ahead can't wait to see you missus jade. :)
I might not show it all the time but I do miss you and I know I let you down alot but this summer sweetie I hope to make it the best :) just like it used to be
and as for boys well there's a whole new adventure waiting for me I just cant wait to explore it :D
My car is getting fixed so it will be sweeeeeeet again ;) and new speakers oh my life i can't wait!
Secondly i am enjoying myself back at my usual haunts ROPERRR AND WAREHOUSE ;) saving my pennies toooo!
Going to Alton towers sooooon as well fuck life is good and there's someone :)
well we are on chit chat level right now but its sweet and he doesn't know it :)))
eeee :)
I'm at Gemmas at the moment and getting ready to go out to warehouse tonight Tuesday warehouse times :) I haven't been to warehouse single in a while and it's always better ;) because at this moment in time I have more confidence than I have ever had ;)
Which i don't think is a bad thing just makes me stronger also, I sympathise with everyone who has ever had tooth ache had to go to fucking hospital last night I was in so much pain and it's being taken out next Monday I NEVER have problems with my teeth ever!
Anyway I have bee getting back to the music that I used to listen too! I feel like its summer 07 all over again down in Ribchester with a few people missing but they will be back from uni soon so hopefully my plans will go ahead can't wait to see you missus jade. :)
I might not show it all the time but I do miss you and I know I let you down alot but this summer sweetie I hope to make it the best :) just like it used to be
and as for boys well there's a whole new adventure waiting for me I just cant wait to explore it :D
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