Saturday 22 May 2010

what goes up must come down.

I need to think about other things.
Rather than the past year.

1. I don't hate you.

2. I didn't mean to crash into a tree.
haha.
but it's not funny i could be dead.

3. Thankyou for making me realise.

4. I never knew what love was.

5. I'm learning from that.

6. Money= save it.

7. Don't believe what everyone tells you.

8. Take oppurtunites when they come to you.

9. Life is a bundle of fun enjoy it while you can.

10. I'm sorry again.

11. I'm okay with it.

12. Make your decisions more wisely.

13. Look after yourself.

14. Start singing, properly.

15. Drive like a sane person.

16. Never let your friends down.

17. Appreciate your family more.

18. Don't do anything to rash.

19. Fall in love it's the best thing ever.

20. Never take yourself for granted.

21. The future will be amazing unless you don't let it.

22. Make every moment count.

23. No regrets.

24. Quit smoking.

25. Don't hold a grudge life's too short too do that.

26. You were never good at holding grudges anyway.

27. Stop acting so dumb.

28. Let people in abit more.

29. Don't do drugs.

30. Listen to music.

31. Dance because you want to.

32. Be whoever you want to be.

33. Don't take no crap from anyone.

34. Life is a can of peaches.
haha.

35. you were never a philospher although you always wished you had taken philisophy.


I guess
this is a checklist to myself. To make sure i don't miss out.

Because i have held my head down and now it' time to just shine.

Thursday 20 May 2010

Why do you have to go and be somebody like you.

I miss limp bizkit.
I love this song too.
I miss being a dirty mosher.




But this will by far be one of my favourite limp bizkit songs till the end of time!




"I'm so sorry, so sorry your beauty is so vain" bestpart!
if you don't agree shut ya mouth.

sorry the best part starts at 3:29.
woah i could have Fred Durst anyday.

Again this one has got me moooooving!!

complete opposite to Limp bizkit.

Wednesday 19 May 2010

You left me in the dark



A fallen star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

This is by far my favourite song of all time, I really mean that.
There hasn't been a day since I found it where i haven't listened to it.
If this song were a man i would be in love with him right now.
Haha :)

Tuesday 18 May 2010

I hope I get you.

I have that feeling everytime I see him.
That butterfly feeling when you go all shy and don't really know what to say to him.
It's emabaressing for me because i'm not shy of talking.
But he, actually puts a big grin on my face when i get a text from him.
And he puts the hugest smile on my face and makes me want to not leave when he's around.

I haven't been this excited in ages.
It's really complicated though.
You could say he's not my type but he is.
We both can just chat shit to each other and give shit to one another and know we aren't going to think we're weird.
He knows how i feel alot.
I actually just plucked up the courage and asked him if he was interested.
And he said yes and then he brought in the ex...
You see, i'm staying well clear at the moment because he only has recently split with her and i don't want to get involved in that.
But i really like him, and i have this frame of mind at the moment that i don't really want to be with anyone or get to any guys just purely because they are more hassle than they're worth which resulted in me actually hurting this guy flynn a couple of months ago i talked about him on here before but i just couldn't do it.
We were different people as well, and the one thing that really put me off him is that he smoked alot of weed and now that i don't do that and haven't done for a long time didn't make me see how it would work. Because i'd probably be dragged back into that and i don't want that it fucks with you seriously.
I get really worried about my brother and my friends because they do smoke it and i never do it when i'm with them but i just think about how much they're doing it and it scares the fucking life out of me. I once confronted Liam about it and he knew it was problem. I can't say much though smoking i think is equally bad but i just can't seem to not put a fag down and think my lungs are going black inside of me your nannas in hospital.
You would think by how much i love my nanna i would stop.
And i really love her.
When i go up to visit i never want to leave.
Anyway shes a touchy subject with me and i always start to feel my eyes stinging.
But not alot of people know how ill she is just a few mates.
Anyway back to this boy, like i said he's not my usual type.. he's sort of a preppy boy...
Doesn't drive..
Has dark hair and dark eyes lacking the tallness but thats not a problem..
I usual go for quite well...
When i look at a guy i look at hair..
it's shallow i know but i do then i look at their feet haha
to see what shoes they are wearing.
And then i look at their eyes and i normally go for blue eyed boys.
But he's different but i'm just waiting till he figures out what he wants because he's confused me alot.
:)
I have my options though he's not the only one i have been looking at jokejoke!
I'm a one guy girl. Would never cheat on anyone!
Anyway it's Gemmas birthday on Friday and I can't wait! She already knows i'm buying her soulcaliber hahaha and another ps3 controller ahaha so i can play.
I'm a nice friend.
I have been playing soulcaliber and tekken like non-stop since last weekend. i'm fucking addicted.
and annoyed that i can now eventually buy live and then remembered that me ad liam had our xbox chipped and now we are banned. MOTHERFUCKERS.
But then i could go to the darkside and invest in a ps3??
Then i would be able to go on live aqnd not pay for it!

But i had the best day today just cruised into garstang met adz and lee at the pub had a pint which i had been craving for because it was so sunny today!
Then we went and met up with helen and arthur by the river and just chilled till the sun went away i love days like those!

ASjhkldshgwaf there's so much to look forward to this summer!!
:D i can't fucking wait for whit monday weekend it's going to be messy times!
I can't wait to go to the beach and eat a 99! haha :)
And wear my shortsssssss.
Go to the beer gardens!

I just can't tell myself enough how much i love my friends though,
i just woudln't be the same without them.
I hate staying at home i have to be out or just get annoyed at myself.

I just can't wait for this year and the next year and the year after that
because i don't know whats going to happen and i don't want to predict whats going to happen. I hope good things come my way and for everyone!

I'm going to be really sad right now but this is how i realised it was good, I was walking just past arthurs house and i could just smell the summer air and for a second i was just like woah it smells good life is good i feel good i just can't wait!!!!
haaa
i should really stop writing before i start explaning to you how much i love the sky and space and how much we as a human race don't know about it.
It actually amazes me.
hdsahlkdskhdfkfd

i think i have done enough writing for one night.

Saturday 15 May 2010

Je Veux

I want a big fancy car.
I want to live in america.
I want money.
I want love.
I want outdoors
I WANT music.
I want a stage.
I want a hug everyday.
I want sunshine everyday.
I want to eat and not worry about weight.
I want to lie in every morning.
I want to build a house one day.
I want to be successful.
I want to not care.
I want to care more about world issues.
I want to know more.
I want understand everything.
I want to speak four languages.
I want to go to Japan and Australia and Argentina.
I want my hair to be perfect 24/7
I want to stop smoking.
I want to be organised.
I want to be tidier.
I want to be thinner.
I want to be better.
I want to keep my friends forever.
I want to watch cheesy shit.
I want to listen to gangsta rap.
I want to listen to heavy bassline.
I want to go wherever i want to go.
I want to go to nasa.
I want to be with the stars.
I want a telescope.
I want kids.
I want.
I want.
I want.


But you can't have.
unless you try.

Monday 3 May 2010

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone.

I really do like spending time with myself sometimes but then i tend over think then, you wouldn't think i liked my solitude if you ever meet me but i do.

Sometimes your brain gets overworked and you need to slow down.

I have been overloaded with information these couple of days some of it i don't want know.

The thing is that you have all these thoughts and sometimes it's thoughts you don't share with anyone and my head is becoming crammed with little ideas not bad ones but just ideas of what to do next..

The way i see it is that i'm 20 this year not for another six months or so, but i'm thinking i need to tie up loose ends.

For a starters get my self a decent car that isn't going to break down me all the time haha.

Then get myself a deposit maybe someone cool to move in with..
They'd have to put up with my constant singing and be able to get shitfaced every weekend (Y) and love loud music!

And maybe find myself a nice boy.

I have been getting sick of boys recently.
It's like i love going out, but all the attention is mainly aimed at my chest and whether i'm going to sleep with you.

You know its nice to talk about shit sometimes. =/

Anyway i found loads of cdss under my bed in a box which is still unpacked!! I really do need to sort my shit out it's everywhere..

Like really random cds from the nineties! haha backstreet boys god someone stab me.

And I FOUND MY PS2!! AND ALL THE GAMES IN THE LOFT! and it still works well on old skool gta!!!

anyway just a random update really...

Sunday 2 May 2010

New Job and other things

So the new job is going great i love it!

I really can't wait to learn more i have learnt so much in three days and it really has me interested!
I never thought in a hundred years i would be an estate agent but i am and i really like it, i suppose i had to realise sometime i wasn't going to be famous eh?

haha.

But on the other hand it really got me thinking about getting house myself how many years it would take to save some money for a deposit i would also have to take out a loan too... but i can cope with that!

But i'm a bit bored and it's a saturday night so i thought i would answer these random questions....

What is your full name?

-Laura Lorraine Masson

When is your birthday?

-30th of October 1990

Where do you live?

- I am currently living just outside of St Michaels this is in Lancashire.

Do you have siblings? How many?

- Yes i'm the eldest of four

What is the most embarrassing moment of your life?

- Easy primary two weed myself in front of the whole class!

What is your favorite food?

- I love chicken. But i have just gotten into mexican food i love it!

What is your favorite Drink?

- If we are going non-alcoholic it has to be Coca-cola!! Alcoholic simple. VODKA lime and lemonade

What is your favorite color?

- Red

What is your favorite book?

-Wuthering heights i love that book but i do like the twilight sagas sorry guys but the books are better than the films!

Who is your favorite actor?

- I love anything with Will ferrel in. But i do like Nicole Kidman an awful lot.

Who is your favorite author?

- Stephenie meyer for the moment..

What is your favorite TV show?

- two Family guy and south park!

What is your favorite song?

- Now this is a ridculous question! I have so many fave songs it's untrue but for the moment it's plan b welcome to hell. Or Tito and Ms Porsh Drop its a catchy tune..

What is your favorite movie?

- Sin City or Pulp fiction anything by tarantino really, Kill Bills.. that kind of thing but not inglorious basterds i thought it was terrible.

What is your favorite car?

- Well i would love a bugatti Veyron but that is never going to happen so i will settle for a Honda civic type r? please..

Who do you love most in the world?

- I love Gemma and Jade the most :) apart from my family obviously but they just know me inside and out and i love them lotsss!

Are you married?

- Nope. One day hopefully..

Are you in a relationship?

- nopeee and don't want to be in one at the moment can't be bothered!

Do you have a crush on someone?

- yess :)

What is your best friend's name?

- Andy Dewhurst he would kill me if i didn't put him in there!! Gemma Hudson and Jade Moscrop.

What do you like most in guys?

- I love confidence but not too much that he is a right dick and humour, and i love it when a guy approaches me by the way, girls like that!!

Who do you look like?

- I have been told once before Kelly Osbourne.. and Duffy but that was when i was blonde.

What color is your hair?

- Reddd!!

What color are your eyes?

- I was told they look blue but i think they are green who knowssssss!

What is your religion?

- I don't really have an opinion on it anymore either way until jesus shakes my hand and does a whole load of mircales in front of my eyes then i will believe.

Are you / do you want to / have graduated from college?

- I have left collegee!

What did you/ are going to major in?

- I did Performing arts and english. I could have done alot better in my english but at the time there was so much distractions in my life i didn't even try.

Do you work? If so, what is your profession?

- I do work and my main job is i'm negotiator for Entwistle Green in Longridge and i love it i have another job which is just for a little extra cash and thats at Little Ducklings Nursery it's only supply so they ring me when they need meee!

What does your name mean?

- Laurel latin equivalent taken from the laurel tree..

What do you value most in a person?

- Honesty and decency. Honesty is the best policy.

Where would you like to live?

- I'm thinking the states big houses sunshine big cities lots happening.

Do you want to get married?

- I really do.. At the end of the day i was born to be a mother and have three kids and have a nice house good job and life is sweeet.. just need to find a guy who can live up to my expectations hahaha! This is a dream by the way..

Do you want to have kids?

- Yes three and if they are three boys they will be called ALVIN, SIMON & THEODORE. NO QUESTIONS ASKED PLEASE. haha and if i have a girl first or a girl at all.. She will be called Grace i love that name.

Do you have a personal website you would like people to visit?

- Only this one..

What do you hate most in a person?

- Dishonesty, rude, full of themselves. One minded people who always think they are right but really need to broaden thier minds and learn that the world doesn't revolve aorund you and maybe if you did actually stop being grumpy assholeeess and tried something new you might actually like it. that basically.

What is your favorite quote?

- It's from hot rod..

Rod " you look pretty..."

Denise " What did you say??"

Rod " I SAID YOU LOOOK SHITTTYYY!!"

Where would your dream vacation be?

- Anywhere that is just buzzing full of life and young people and very much about our generation with times sort of thing.

What is your favorite animal?

- Dogs, I do like cats but i love my dogs and can't wait till i can buy my own puppy i want an alsation again :(

What is your phobia?

- I hate spiders, heights, driving down the motorway... being left on my own in town... My phone dying and my car breaks down.. Never getting out of my mum and dads house

Are you republican or Democratic?

- I wish i would pay more attention to politics seeing as woman did die for me to have a vote i feel entitled too but i haven't this time round because i don't know enough about it but i would actually like to know more because Gordon Brown doesn't know what the fuck he is doing if you ask me.

Do you think President Obama is a good President?

- I think he has fair views so therefore he's alright.

Do you like MTV?

- Yeah i do back in the oldskool days when it was just music music not five different channels and shows like teen moms ... and all that crap although i do love cribs..

Do you like VH1?

- depends if its a good nineties tune i love it.

Do you believe in Heaven?

- I don't know.

Do you believe in Hell?

- I don't know.

Do you believe in the devil?

- I don't know.

Are you an early riser?

- I am now with this new job but no, i am not an early riser. I would stay in bed all day if i could.

What is your dream profession?

-Singer/songwriter. Will never happen.

What was the most exciting moment of your life?

- I haven't experienced half of my life yet so i could something more exciting in the future!

What was the most frightening moment of your life?

- When i crashed my car last year. I have never ever been so scared.

What book would you recommend for others to read?

- Wuthering heights.

Do you have any allergies?

- No but i am allergic to some facial scrubs. And shampoos.

What is your best physical feature?

My boobs.. and my eyes. so i have been told..

How many countries have you traveled?

- I have only ever been to France and Corfu.

Have you ever had your heart broken?

- Yes i recently had someone stamp on it. And literally rip it out of my chest but it's back in there now without him.

Have you ever broken one?

- I hope i haven't it's a horrible feeling. So i apologise if i have. :(

Are you superstitious?

I am a little but i don't follow the rules really..