Dear me.

So tomorrow, you are going to start your new job. Don't mess it up, give your absolute best because this could be your career. You have been thinking alot and you have decided what the hell you are doing.

1. Your young enjoy your fucking life stop worrying 24/7.
2. You don't have to do anything drastic till your thirty haha.
3. If life was boring you would be dead you don't like boring,
4. You like being single and you like having your options you always have done.
5. You don't have to rush into anything..


don't worry, it will be fine stop worrying about this new job.


And life is made for living Laura so fucking live it like you have been doing exploring every oppurtunity and you have done it now more than ever.

Even Jade knows you have found who you are,

and your happy with that and remember you have the rest of your life to figure out truly what you want to do but just go with the flow, like you have been doing...

Just a quick one.

Plan B.


and Gemma.



Sounds like the



the

best


thing


ever.



And

thanks


GEMMA


for copying me the cd :D


and



WE LOVE THAT DIRTY GRIME BEATZ,


:)


night.

Things are looking up!

For the first time in awhile i can honestly hand on heart say I'm so happy :)

So I have so much to tell in so little time well when i go to bed, which is another thing I'm getting back into my own little routines i used to have going to bed at like five in the morning after talking to randomers on isketch haha!

And to a boy :)

But carrying on this girl has changed not completely but i feel like i have grown up, i still like all the things i like i just think i have a clearer view on the way i see things.

For example i was sick of working in that pub. The Crofters it was only something to keep me going until i found something better and i have! I am now working still part time but i have another job too which i will tell you about in a minute! I now work for Entwistle Green estate agents :) I get 10k a year plus commission which i think is fair good because you get it for a lot of things it's such a good opportunity i couldn't refuse and then i get paid 6.70 an hour for being a supply worker at little ducklings nursery i don't do that for work though i do it because i love it little kids minds are so imaginative i wish i was that small when i used to play with my best friends the bumble bee king! Haa basically i was the princess and David was the big bumble bee and i had to run away and escape and then the butterfly queen would rescue me. Haha i so wish i was that small again though, you had no worries, didn't have to think about money or cars, or relationships or careers all you did was paint pictures and play in the sand if only life were that simple...

But i start next Thursday and I'm really looking forward to it i can't wait!!
And then it brings me to my next adventure I'm going to get a place i have been saving and saving my little ass off and have come up with 700 quid for a deposit on somewhere for me i don't care if it's shared i can't continue sharing a room with my two younger sisters, and it was especially awkward the other night when i wanted to bring a male friend round and then remembered that i share room with my two younger sisters I'm twenty this year and i want to start making my own way :)



I'M ALSO GOING TO LEEDS. TO SEE PARAMORE BLINK 182 LIMP BIZKIT AND FOALS AND MANY MORE FUCKING GOOD BANDS.

i thought I'd put that in there ;)


ahaaa!

Also going to men.
I got worried about one boy a couple of days ago he doesn't know i look out for him but i do, he probably doesn't want me too... because we're sort of on bad termssssss.
But i know he doesn't like a few things and i respected him for that so i never did it. But i do know why he doesn't and i do know a few things because of that and what it has done to him now..
but i like to stay away from him. But i wish we were friends because sometimes funny shit happens to me and i want to tell him because he knew me for doing some stupid shit. haha :) we had some good times. But i still care i hope I'm still allowed to care. I hope that's not weird either....
I don't have any feelings for him anymore and i don't think i ever will again ever.
But I miss his friendship, because that was ace.

But i have moved on from that and i realise i wouldn't have had feelings like do for this other boy, if i was with him.

which brings me to him.

He's not my typical guy i go for basically he's caught me off guard by how much I'm into him i like him alot basically and i can't help it I'm so sad, i hope he comes in sometimes because he's so lovely to talk to and he has me laughing because of his witty comments and humour in general and that is one way to get me interested make me laugh :)
But i got a little confused but he made things clearer its a shame really, because he's sort of going through what i was going through not sure if your over that person enough to start getting to know someone else a bit better like that...
and he hasn't told me that exactly but i know that's what it is...
But i really would love to get to know him, i don't know what it is but he gives me those little butterflies when i first see him..
and then i know i like him and i haven't had that feeling for awhile..
and i forgot how good it felt :)
but I'm just taking my time i don't want to rush i just want to enjoy it while i can until one day for whatever reason it goes..
well lets face it things don't last forever.
I hope my phone does though ahah how bad is that, but its beautiful :)

But apart from that like i hayley sings, ;) Things are looking up well finally! I thought i'd never see the day when you'd smile at me <3

i'm out people its twenty past one and i need a fag and wooo day off tomorrow :D

xx